Love at first fight 3: back to basics
Believe it or not, I screwed stuff up with Jade. I loved her . So much . It was impossible to not love her. She was an invincible goddess of strength and grace. I worshipped her muscles and felt more vulnerable and comfortable as I could. She unlocked my feminine side. Sadly, as it does. My ego creeped back in. Each time I wasn’t with her, I felt disgusted by myself. I’d look at the mirror wearing her t shirt which was so lose on me , and feel - what happened to the man in me ? My friends who were afraid to tease me in front of her would do so when she was not around. I knew if she came in the room , she would kick their ass so hard but I didn’t want to. In her absence, the noise of me losing myself got louder. One day it broke me as I cried on the floor naked while she was on tour. I was too afraid to face her so I left a note and moved back to India. I joined a gym , enrolled in a high protein nutrition program. I built solid muscle for 1 year and looked almost twice as big as b...